Sunday, January 28, 2007

Band Wagon

Yay! My friends like Damn Apes too!
Vic made my weekend and finally send me some mp3s so I can listen to Damn Apes songs on my ipod. YAY!!! I am soooo happy now!

Friday, January 26, 2007

Music for today

Maybe I'll start posting a daily music list, at least until I get tired of that, or too busy, or something. I've spent all day on the computer today because Miranda started puking as we were leaving the house today so I got stuck at home.
  1. Woman Like A Man - by Damien Rice
  2. What's A Girl To Do - by Bat For Lashes
  3. Tel que tu es - by Charlotte Gainsbourg
  4. Re-Offender - by Travis
  5. Hunting For Witches - by Bloc Party
  6. Thanks For The Memories - by Fall Out Boy


I found this photo of Me and Daniel (from Texas)... it was taken 9 years ago at an X-Files convention about a week after I moved to Dallas. I was a terrible actress at that time!! I don't know if I am any better now (I like to think I am) but at least now I wouldn't be smiling at the sight of an approaching bright light, as I was doing in this photo.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Blast off!

I took Miranda and Sadie to Galaxyland on Sunday. I wonder why they didn't want to go on the rides I wanted to go on, like the Mindbender roller coaster...

video 1 /video 2 /video 3

Pretty When You Cry

Here is a list of the top 10 Songs to Make You Cry currently in rotation on my ipod/computer

1. Cat and Mouse by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus lyrics

We made plans to grow old,
believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told.
Lost in a simple game cat and mouse are we the same people as before this came to light?

Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.

2. Look after You - by The Fray lyrics

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
I'll look after you

3. Konstantine - by Something Corporate lyrics

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand all the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big. . .
It's always you
In my big dreams

And you tell me that it's over
But I can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You gotta get out
You can't stand to see me shakin'
No. . .
Could you let me go?
I didn't think so.

4. Final Goodbye - by Victorion lyrics

Tried to be something I was not
To make you happy
But it all went wrong
And now we're sad
Sitting all alone, and even mad
Can't pick up the phone
Can't even talk to you
God I'm feeling blue
Can't talk to you
For now

5. Relief - by Chris Garneau lyrics

i saw the sea come in
i saw your good old friend
he walked right passed
i'll never ask
i'll never ask again

i love the way you dance
we can work well out
dont u miss your chance
the pain will all grow out

6. Golden - by Fall Out Boy lyrics

And I knew the lights of the city were too heavy for me (too heavy for me)
And though I carry carots for everyone to see (everyone to seeeeee)

And I saw god cry in the reflection of my enemies
And all the lovers with no time for me
And all of the mothers raise their babies,
to stay away from me
and pray that they don't grow up to be

7. We Might Fall - by Ryan Star lyrics

We should go to sleep now,
You should stay the night.
I'll be up to watch the world around us live and die.
Lying on the grass now,
Dancing for the stars.
Maybe one will look on down and tell us who we are.

We might fall
We might fall
We might fall Hallie we might fall

8. Love Will Come Through - by Travis lyrics

So take me, don't leave me
Take me, don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
It's just waiting for you

And you stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I've got a feeling
It's right

If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no make believing
The sound of the wings
Of the flight

9. Comin' Home - by City and Colour lyrics

I've seen a palace in London, I've seen a castle in Wales
but I'd rather wake up beside you and breathe that ol' familiar smell.
I never thought you could leave me, I figured I was the one
but I understand your sadness so I guess I should just hold my tongue.

But I'm comin' home, I'm comin' home
I'm comin' home, I'm comin' home
Comin' home, I'm comin' home
Comin' home

I know that we're takin' chances, you told me life was a risk.
I just have one last question...
will it be my heart or will it be his?

10. Center of Attention - by Jackson Waters lyrics

You want your independence
But you won't let me let you go
You wanna test the waters
And leave it on the empty shores

But I'll take my time if you want to
And I'll give you whatever you need
And I'll wait a lifetime to give it to you
Give it to you

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Chase dreams. Chase boys. Chase dreamy boys.

I bought a boyfriend! A "Build Your Own Boyfriend".

Where oh where is Mr. Right? You search for him all day and night. But don't despair... no need to fear, your very own dream man is here! Change his clothes from head to toe... he's your favourite Romeo. When you tire of those dating scenes go have fun with the man of your dreams!

His magnetic personality sticks to refrigerators, file cabinets and magnetic chalkboards.

$9.99 at the Hallmark store

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Sometimes I wish

Don't get me wrong, I love my child dearly, but lately this single parent thing has been very exhausting.

This morning:
- Miranda didn't want to wake up
- we were late leaving the house as a result
- I was 1/2 way to work I realised we left her lunch on the counter so I had to turn around and get it to school for her so she wouldn't starve
- I was late for work
If I could be 22 again:
- the only thing that might have made me late for work was a hangover, and I was pretty good at still dragging my ass to work on mornings like that
- I was dating Marshall and Chuck and this time I would stay with Marshall
- I won't have gotten married, won't have had a baby, and I wouldn't have anyone else to look after 
- living in a warmer climate (the specialist said it was best for my fingers if I move to a climate warmer than Alberta) and not having problems with Reynaud's and wasn't having to go for Lupus screening.
My initial blood work shower a decrease in a particular antibody, which is usually consistent with an auto-immune disease, and Reynaud's can be a result of Lupus, hence the reason for the Lupus screening.
In the meantime I have the following checklist for personal care:
- don't smoke - never did, not about to start!
- exercise - still running and looking to start training with weights
- control stress - hah! good one, I'm a single parent, remember?
- take care of hands & feet (mittens & socks) - already do that


Monday, January 22, 2007

Bleeding me dry

On Friday I went to the lab to have blood drawn, a task I managed to put off for 3 months. I could have put it off longer but I had an appointment with the speacialist today and needed to have the results for him. Eight vials of blood they took!! And I had to fast for 12 hours before the test, so I was not feeling so great that day.

The doctor I met with specializes in Rheumatology and Internal Medicine, in regards to my fingers and toes turning white, blue, red, and even purple now. He went over my test results and said he wants me to have some other tests done, which means another 7 or 8 vials of blood have to be drawn.

melts in your mouth—not in your hand

Build your own M&M character here
Melts in your mouth, not in your hand, my ass!! I melt on my own terms!

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Shout out out out out ! to my Bro

Hi butt-wipe!!

I don't believe I have really mentioned him here but I do have a younger brother (Roland). Perhaps I would talk about him more if he actually called me when he was in town... *wink*

Anyway, he wasn't able to come home for Christmas (I wasn't around anyway) and he sent pictures of the Christmas tree the boys built at the camp (or whatever it's called where they are at). Look at those fancy-dancy glow-striped coveralls! Coulor me jealous!! (not!)

I did get the photos at Christmas time, it's just now that I am getting around to blogging about it.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Damn Apes - love it love it love it

If you only do one thing in 2007, check out this band from Vancouver!! Damn Apes And then tell all your friends to check them out!!

I sometimes chat with one of the Damn primates (heehee that's so cute and funny!) and he never told me he was in a band, and that they are sooooo good!! I swear, I have been living on their MySpace page for the past 5 days, listening to their songs over and over. I would totally make the drive there to see one of their shows one of these days. Anyone up for a roadtrip?

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

this and that

  1. Miranda got mail, she says thank you!
  2. ... why, why did you do that? I don't know what I should do with it.
  3. I do not get my music from If I ever visit the site I go to this page, click around on my stats and that's about it.
  4. I hate that photo of you.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

the giraffe

As we were leaving the house this morning, Miranda pulled a paper out of her bookbag and said that it was a card she made for me. She knows that my favourite animal at the zoo is the giraffe.

arm on ice

I was taking Miranda to school this morning and I went back to the car to retrieve a hair elastic so she could have her hair up for dance classes this afternoon. I nearly fell on the stairs leaving the school, considering myself very lucky that I hadn't fallen. Well #@*% my lucky because I don't have any real luck. As I was going to leave the school the second time, I slipped and fell in the hallway. Not about to let anyone see me on the floor, I immediately got back up and gracefully (at least with as much grace as was manageable) limped out to the car. I was actually going to work but after driving for 5 minutes I realised I had been crying the entire time and my arm was laying limp in my lap so it wasn't like I was actually going to be able to work. Plus, the pain was excruciating.

Yes, I turned around and went home. I could move my fingers (I didn't actually test that out until I was out of the school and in the car) so I deduced nothing was broken, and that the best thing would be to pack my arm in ice and take something for the pain and just rest.

Filling a bag with ice was interesting, since one hand hurt so bad and the other hand got cold so fast and my fingers were going white. I don't have much more ice in the freezer and I was thinking I would have o go out for more, but then I realised, it's winter! And I live in Canada! And we have lots of snow, so I don't have to go any further than the back yard. I might not have been blessed with luck, but I am blessed with brains.

I can't imagine always having to type with just hand all the time. (pardon any errors, at least I have an excuse!)

Monday, January 15, 2007


I can no longer blog from work; they blocked I'm sending this via email and I am not sure if it actually will post or if it just creates a draft.

1 sad angel :(

ps - it just creates drafts

Sunday, January 14, 2007

My Space on MySpace

I'm on MySpace, are you? I mean really, anyone who is anyone has their own space on MySpace! Here's mine.

Friday, January 12, 2007


I need it! I want it! I have to have it!
iPhone countdown to June
(I know Chris (the Apple hater) probably thinks I am retarded. His actual response was, I think I just threw up in my mouth.)

I have been shopping around for a new mobile phone and was 98% sure I was going to get the MOTOKRZR (because it's sleek and sexy), but I had also been considering the Samsung A720 (because it comes in pink) or the LG Chocolate (yummm! and love the red lights) or waiting for the LG Shine to hit Canada... but really, if Apple is going to have a phone out then is there any competition?? Since it won't be in Canada until probably December, I'm gonna get the KRZR and then upgrade at the end of the year.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Blizzard, and not they kind you buy at Dairy Queen

The next time there is a blizzard icon on the daily weather forecast, I am not letting myself out of the house! Yesterday, I was retarded enough to drive to work when I could barely see the road in front of me.

At the end of the day, it took me 1 hour and 45 minutes to get from my office to Miranda at the daycare centre. Yes, that's right, Miranda is back in daycare because my stepmonster told me on New Year's Eve that she can no longer watch her after school. I should have easliy been there in 45 minutes.

I thought maybe the office would shut down. They have done it in the past wtih the Halifax, NS office. Nope, we stayed open all day long. Not even a drop of sympathy for the people who didn't call in sick. I have lived in Edmonton for 30 years (with the exception of the 3 years spent in the States) and I have never known the city to shut down because of winter weather. In Dallas, a light dusting of snow fall over night caused our Microsoft office to shut down for the day.

Today they have began grating the snow off the main roads, making them as icy as skating rinks. The coin slot for the parking lot ticket dispenser was iced shut. I think I should have stayed in bed today, too. To K in Mexico: I should have hitched a ride in your suitcase.

Monday, January 08, 2007

"Yeah! You're part of it"

I've never been fond of rap music, but post-punk laptop rap, now there's something that I can listen to. MC Lars is amazing! Some songs are rappy, some songs are punky, some are both, every song sounds different. His sound is great, and his lyrics are mentally stimulating and funny with their modern references.

My favourite song is Space Game:

Hey Fry, look, we can still be friends
I won’t ask Leela out again. Sci-fi, I try, I fly solo
Shoot your landspeeder up just like Bolo
“What’s with Lars, and what’s with his name?”
Never mind that ish, ‘cause I’ve got space game!


Darth Maul can’t stop me (I’m on fire tonight)
Boba Fett can’t stop me (I’m on fire tonight)
Vader can’t stop me (I’m on fire tonight)
Space player bowling up like dynamite
Dr. Smith can’t stop me (I’m on fire tonight)
Q can’t stop me (I’m on fire tonight)
Even Hal can’t stop me (I’m on fire tonight)

Download this Song, a song which talks about the future of the music industry:

Hey Mr. Record Man
The joke’s on you
Running your label
Like it was 1992
Hey Mr. Record Man,
Your system can’t compete
It’s the New Artist Model
File transfer complete
Download this song!

Check out his spot and "download this song".
More songs to listen to are featured on his spot.
Then there is his official website.

I just can't say enough about this stuff! Other great songs from his album "The Graduate" - Rapgirl, 21 Concepts, Ahab (Miranda's favourite!), Singing Emo, i-Generation... they are all great! Go listen now!!

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Moments Captured

The concert last night was amazing!! The sound in the Winspear is fantastic, so crisp and clear, it's like nothing else in this world, and Dallas Green really is music to the ears in a magical sense! Casey Jones opened the show and he was wonderful!! His CD was a must buy, and it was so cute because he burns them himself, prints out the packaging, and staples it all together: great music, great songs, totally made with love. The best thing about it is these guys are so real. They are doing it for the love of the music, not because they love the attention and adoration of the fans. In fact, that made them uncomfortable. They are also sooo funny! (- Casey and his story about Starbucks pumpkin scones, how tuning the guitar between songs is like peeing with the door open, big papa d-dog.)

Someone said there was 1900 people in the auditorium, but I would never have guessed it would hold that many. It was quite intimate and with the acoustics being so wonderful, there was a lot of interaction with the audience. It was SO MUCH FUN!!!

AWESOME new song:

Dallas sings Hello,totally funny!

Saturday, January 06, 2007


I am a Gemini. Life is fun as a Gemini. A Gemini girl is fun because she's different every day, so it's like knowing a bunch of different girls all wrapped up in one package!

Traditional Gemini traits

  • Adaptable and versatile
  • Communicative and witty
  • Intellectual and eloquent
  • Youthful and lively

On the dark side

  • Nervous and tense
  • Superficial and inconsistent
  • Cunning and inquisitive


  • Talking
  • Novelty and the unusual
  • Variety in life
  • Multiple projects all going at once
  • Reading


  • Feeling tied down
  • Learning, such as school
  • Being in a rut
  • Mental inaction
  • Being alone

People who share my birthday:

  • June 17, 1832 - Sir William Crooks - Scientist
  • June 17, 1878 - M.C. Esher - Artist
  • June 17, 1882 - Igor Stravinsky - Composer
  • June 17, 1917 - Dean Martin - Singer
  • June 17, 1946 - Barry Manilow - Singer
  • June 17, 1904 - Ralph Belemy - Actor

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

City And Colour

Well I've been down to Georgia
I've seen the streets in the west.
I've driven down the 90, hell I've seen America's best.
I've been through the Rockies,
I've seen Saskatoon
I've driven down the highway 1 just hopin' that I'd see you soon.

'cause I'm comin' home, I'm comin' home.

- Comin' Home (by City And Colour)

I just found out that I am going to see City And Colour on Saturday night at the Winspear!!! Dallas Green has such a great voice (He also is part of the band Alexisonfire and sings "The Grace" with Neverending White Lights.)

Monday, January 01, 2007


The first morning of 2007 I was waking up in Banff!

How I got there:

Last night I left Edmonton at 6:15. I was a little afraid about making the trip, since I would be driving alone and it was pitch black outside, and I was afraid that I would be sleepy because of the darkness. Three cans of Coke Zero and two mandarin oranges helped keep me awake, not like I actually felt a narcoleptic attack coming on like I do driving in the city at night.
The thrill of the drive kept me stimulated! First, I had to watch carefully for potential hazards like animals running across the highway. The first rush came as I was watching the tail lights of the 3 cars ahead of me. Suddenly the middle set of lights disappeared!! There was no exit ramp in that area and at first I thought the car had just turned off its lights. Well, it turns out that the car had gone down a hill and then it popped back into view. I thought that was funny.

The second rush came when I was on highway 567 and was going up a twisty part, and I could see a car way up the road, twisting around.

The third rush came when I had my first sight of the mountains. The moon was full and bright and the snow on the peaks glowed. It was awe inspiring!

Problems - not really! I made one stop in Red Deer to top up the gas and visit the loo. Traffic was very light, especially once I got on the #567. Along that road there was a small curve and I went the wrong way but noticed my mistake immediately and was able to correct it. The same thing happened when trying to connect to the #22. I swear, they need to better mark the major junctions in this province!! The weather was great but I probably was still driving too fast for the time of year and being that it was at night. I did slow down once I hit the mountains, because I didn't want to spin out on some black ice.

I arrived at 10:15, just in time to start the celebrating (at the Paddock Pub. We didn't go out to the street for the fireworks, but apparently the streets are packed with people. The mess afterwards was reminiscent of Whyte Ave parties, beer bottles and garbage strewn all over the place.

How I got back:

Taking the route that detoured around Calgary, I arrived in 4 hours. On the way home I missed a few junctions and ended up driving through Calgary and I arrived home exactly 4 hours after leaving Banff. That trip back home was not nearly as fun, and was actually soft of stressful before I finally made it to the QE2. First, traffic was heavy and the wind was gusting and making my little Honda Civic blow about the road. Then, I missed the turn in the road for the highway #1A and ended up on the #1. So I figured I would ride it all the way to Calgary. Then I saw the exit for the #22 to Cochrane, but I couldn't get over in time to exit, so I figured I would stay on the #1 to Calgary. Once I got to Calgary, I was terrified I would somehow miss the connection to the QE2. Oh! and I was panicking as I drove through Calgary becasue the gas guage hasn't moved at all and was still sitting at full. I thought it was broken, but as I got to Deerfoot Trail the needle moved lower so I could relax.